Is my blog dark?

Well it's a slightly distorted line to start with. What I really meant to say was, 'Am I a person tottering on the negative side of things?' Do I complain all the time..no hang on, this is self pity talk. I am not a bloody negative person. I am as normal as the next positive person! It's just , having had these two children I have become so sensitive to small shit.

Why did A not think about me going in the morning?
Why do I have to stay in the house day in and day out doing the same mindless things over and over again?
Why do I have to waste my life with A's parents and he giving me a 'pep talk' all the time on how I should learn to ignore?

Because I chose to

• Have babies
• Take care of them
• Stay at home and take care of them

But that doesn't mean that I am not going crazy slowly but surely

• Not doing anything except managing my children's lives/fighting every day for the food to be cooked/fighting for space
• Not managing my own space
• not using my brain except for petty shit
• Not being able to let go of the petty shit

Well this can be a really long post, and I was thinking do I really need to put this all up in front of virtual strangers...and then I thought...

What the Hell!!!