Oh so cold!!!!

Well, I've been battling with this nasty little piece of common cold for almost two weeks now...first with Kabir who got it so bad and now me...who got it sooo bad!
And on top of this , I don't feel like doing anything at all...like I used to before having a baby...the ONLY downside of having a baby (at least for people like me who don't trust in the collective powers of ayahs and grandmothers!) is that you can never laze around and be decadent as you used to pre-baby.
And then there is the added intrigue- which doesn't make your mental state any better- murmurs and rumours around selling this house and buying another one...my life or rather our lives seem to have taken a course beyond our control.
I wonder are all parents like Anuj's? No I know they aren't. Mine aren't. Neither are so many more I know. And it's not just a question of appearances. Most parents do talk to their children AND listen to them when they are making important decisions of their lives. Like selling part of their house for peanuts and then expecting three families to stay in the space for one. Not sharing their 'financial secrets' lest the wicked sons and their even more wicked wives (now that Swati is gone- wife) do away with all their 'hard earned money'. That the 'hard earned money' is a legacy of their own parents, kind of escapes their notice.
Well, just like our wedding which was a complete antithesis of what we wanted from a marriage ceremony, I guess we'll just have to make the best of this hash. I hope we do a good job.

Buying new books!

I guess it never goes away- the excitement that comes with buying a new (oh my god am I really going to say it?) TEXTBOOK? I am a 33 year old mother of a two and a half year old boy...am I really excited about buying a new text book...yes it is for myself!!!!! Well, I do happen to be a bibliophile and while the scent of new non text-books does get my heart going a strange rhythm; the idea of buying anything remotely 'textbookish' (and this includes dictionaries, atlases, maps- which I buy just to pore over etc) gets me closer to the edge.

So what does it make me? A fetishist of some sort for sure! Have I never been able to get out of school or has the idea of 'school' BECOME A PART OF MY PSYCHE?
Hang on why am I obsessing about buying a simple text book? Because I bought it- because I went ( and dragged my husband, baby boy and niece along with me) to the only bookshop that stocks it and which happened to be fifteen kilometres away? Because I am writing about it in my blog? Oh forget it...just my overworked brain finding a release in this foolish line of thought.

Well I have decided to take Delf B 1 and just have to work a little for it.
But that doesn't take away the fun of buying new textbooks.

Great weather!!!!

Amazing Weather......after a long time..not really true...but feels like it all the same...sitting out in my garden...am wondering how long will i be able to enjoy this here in Jor B?
The past month has been so F*** ALL....and the months before that- so hectic that I have a feeling of having run all this while without sitting down to draw my breath...just a quick recap....getting a house reconstructed...dealing with in-laws...preparing (and I mean buying EVERYTHING) for Deepa's wedding...preparing AND travelling to the U.S. (finally after my elder sister's been there for 16 years)...hoping and planning lots of FUN...figthing with my baby sister-who could do no wrong in my eyes and whose wedding it is...and whose appt we are staying in...we don't speak for the rest of the trip which lasts all of FIVE days instead of the original TWENTY ODD days because, and this takes the cake...Swati DIED.... still can't believe it...sweet, gentle Swati...the person who was the warmest towards me and welcomed me like a sister when I got married and came into this cold cold house....Swati who's been a better friend to me lately than my own sisters...Swati who just listened and didn't criticize...I miss you...and I can't believe that you are gone....and we are laughing, eating, eating out...trying to make the children feel as if it's a part of everyday life to lose the person you love dearly so young...

So today I guess it's just become too much for my brain and it in turn took it out on my neck and gave me acute vertigo....and so I decided to sit ouside and enjoy this gorgeous weather while I still have the luxury of staying here in Jor B.!